Little Miracles: The Timmy story

I sit in my rocking chair in the evening holding him watching him sleep and listening to his little sleepy sighs wondering what I ever did without him in my life. 

I had always wanted children and when I finally found out I was pregnant I was beyond happy.  Everyone asked me if I wanted a boy or a girl and was a little put off when I said I didn't care I just wanted a healthy happy baby.  I was talking to a friend of mine at one of my three baby showers about how she was telling another friend of hers that she had a baby shower to go to.  When they asked if it was for a younger sibling they were surprised to hear that is was for someone my age and that it was my first baby.  Ok so I had my first child at 31 but if I would have had him sooner I don't think I would have been as prepared for him as I was.  I was ready to be a mom and I knew that at this point in my life my husband and I could give him everything, if not more, that we had growing up.

On May 1st at around 9 am I went into labor and on May 2nd at 8:55 pm Timothy Warren Byers Johnson was born (on his due date no less). 7 pounds 5 ounces and 20 1/2 inches long.  They of course had to go in after him via C-section because the little booger didn't want to come out on his own.  I told everyone through my whole pregnancy that they were gonna have to go in and get him because he had it good inside my cozy little belly and was smart enough to know not to give up a good thing willingly.  I got to see him for about 5 minutes before they wisked him off to the NICU for the 102 fever he had from a bacterial infection we contracted.  Mine was 100.  As soon as my fever broke and was back to normal I was able to finally got to the NICU and see my son almost 24 hours later.  I sat there holding him the first time marveling over haw perfect he was from his fuzzy red hair, his little ears that stuck out just a bit, to the cute little fingers and toes.  The nurses said that he was the quietest one there and just like us loved to sit with him. 

On May 5th we were released from the hospital and I finally got to take my little pumpkin home.  I thought that taking care of a newborn would be a little harder but Timmy was so easy.  He slept three to four hours at a time, woke up to eat and get changed and then fell back to sleep.  Hardley ever cried, hardley ever fussed and all in all I got more sleep than most new moms because I have the best husband in the world that took 2 weeks off of work to stay home with us and took the night shift so I could sleep.  The first month was a breeze and I was afraid that it would change and my sleep would end but it didn't.  Timmy is like his momma and likes his sleep.  He's been sleeping through the night since he was a month old.  I put him down at around 9pm and he doesn't wake up until 7:30am.  He always wakes up with a big smile for me too.  My heart melts for everyone of those little smiles.

Now my little monkey is a little over 4 months old, teething, drooling, rolling, babbling, smiling and laughing.  He is my precious little man and I love him more and more each day.  Watching him grow and devlop is bittersweet.  I want to see what he will be and what he will accomplish but I also don't want him to grow up so fast.  He brightens up my day with those toothless smiles when I get home from work and always greets me with a smile.  He's a miracle to me.  I never thought I could be so content with my life.  I thought I was just being married to Jeremy and then Timmy comes in to my world and I finally feel complete.  He and my husband fill up the void that I had in my heart after my divorce from my ex.  Jeremy filled most of it when he came back into my life and the day Timmy was born my heart was full.  I look forward to days when I can spend the entire day with both my boys.

 Well there it is in black and white Timmys first semi-biography.  I was prompted to write it in the wake of a tragic event that I don't think any parent should have to go through.  Children are precious and I think that we need to make sure we tell them we love them everyday, hug them, kiss them, even if the duck out of the way and give us the "Awwww mom" look as the wipe the kiss off of their face.  We only have a short time on this Earth and with our children and I think we take that for granted.  So if you are a parent and you read this kiss your babies and tell them you love them and cherish the time you have with them.

And now some pics of my little Tater!

Help Me!!!!

Ok guys, so those of you who know me well know that I work for At&t and have for the last 2 years.  Well I got back from maternity leave and I need to find a way to meet my quotas.  Business has been slow which leaves the probability of making our totals at work that much harder so, I have decided to offer up my cellular knowledge to those of you who have At&t or those that don't but would consider another cellular provider.  

First off, our coverage area is excellent and can rival Verizon.  I have been an At&t customer for coming up on four years now and the only places that I can't get service is up north where phone lines are scarce to begin with and over in the Columbiaville area where no cell phone company can really get anything.

We offer a wide range of some of the hottest phones out there.  We have phones with keyboards for texting, we have basic phones if you just want to make a call, and we have full touch screen phones that can rival the Iphone.

We offer different texting plans to suit the beginner texter (200 messages) to plans to suit someone who texts more than they talk like me!(unlimited!!!!)  We also have internet packages for our phones that start at $10.00 for families or if you have a PDA phone or blackberry(or want one) that start at $15 for 200MB.  We even have feature that has a parental control that you manage online so that you can control what time your kids can talk, who they are talking to and for how long they can use their phone.

We also offer high speed internet and cable services if its available in your area.

Ok now that I have given you all my desperate sales pitch, tell your friends and family to come and see me at MasterWireless At&t  over in Flint on the corner of Court St. and Center Rd.  We are in the Court and Center plaza with a Starbucks and Pro Clean.  I would appreciate your business and need it!!
Thanks Guys!!!!

Two Job or not two job....

     Ok, so I have been back to work almost a month and now I am seriously considering getting a second job.  I know if I did it would take time away from the already little time I get to spend with my husband and my almost 3 month old son, but it might also be a necessity.  The economy has hit everyone hard and that leaves us slower in sales this year than we were last year so of course everyone's hours were cut.  I went from working 40+ hours a week to coming back from maternity leave and lucky if I get 25hours.  It wouldn't be so bad if I worked locally but I also have to drive 20 miles to and from work everyday.  The price of gas added in along with my monthly bills and I can barely afford to get the gas to drive me into work everyday.  All of my paycheck and my husbands goes to bills and food with very little left over to play with.
     I've done the two job thing before( that's how I got the job I'm at right now) and I remember the zombie that I used to be because I was so tired from working both.  I don't even want to think about how much I wouldn't see my husband, miss important milestones in m baby's life and not have one of my own because I would be working all the time along with whatever housework I would have to keep up on and taking care of the baby when I have a moment with him.  I really don't want to be an absentee parent but if I can't find another solution to make some money I may have to opt for the second job.  Or I could always win the lottery.....but the odds of that are about slim to none.  I'm up for suggestions if anyone has any.......

Where would I be without them...?

So here I am on a Saturday night watching A Cinderella Story for the millionth time on Oxygen musing over how happy I am. My friends from high school came over and we sort of had our own little pizza and baby cuddling party. Cindy, Liz and I have been friends since we were 14 or 15 years old and unlike most have been able to keep in touch over the years. They came by to visit and see baby Timmy. The three of us sat in my living room eating pizza and wings, played with my son, and listened to Bill Engvall on Comedy Central. My husband, whom I have also known since I was about 16, sat with us and we all reminisced about high school and people we knew and about what we were all doing now. I don't want to say it was something I had just realized, but more of a revalation of just how happy I am with the way that my life has turned out and how lucky I am to have it. I have a wonderful husband that I would do anything for and that would do anything for me and May 2nd the second love of my life came into the world, Timothy Warren Byers Johnson. My first child and the only other man I will ever love unconditionally. He is now 2 months old and very happy and healthy. I have a roof over my head, albeit a little small, food in the fridge, and a job that I like that manages to also pay the bills. I couldn't see my life any other way and I wouldn't change a thing about it. Somtimes things get a little rough but we fight through it and in the end things come out ok.

I look back sometimes at all the things I had to go through to get where I am today and I ask myself if I would change anything. I couldn't because I have come to realize that if I changed what I have been through then I wouldn't be who I am now,I wouldn't have the beautiful little boy that I love so much, and I wouldn't appreciate the wonderful husband that I have. I love my life and the way it's turned out and if I had it to do all over I would do it all the same way.